THYROIDLICIOUS

Dear Thyroid,

I know it's not your fault, it's just a mysterious occurrence that we can do nothing about. I don't want to blame Mom, either. She's gone through a lot, being hyper when she was younger and now, after having two kids, becoming hypo. It's just generally not fair, mostly because we have nobody to blame.

But really, you haven't caused me that much trouble. Sure, I'm popping pills on a daily basis, but lots of people are doing that. It was definitely worse when I was taking PTU - five disgusting tasting pills twice a day - that was hell. But you've still caused me trouble. Mom said I was moodier. My periods have been more out of whack than ever. I just remember before I was diagnosed, Superbowl Sunday 2006, when, after waiting for six weeks, I had my period for twenty minutes and the blood just flushed right out of me while I was in the bathroom. It was horrific.

I guess I'm a special case. What makes me feel the worst is the shape my body has taken because of you. Everyone I talked to said that hyperthyroidism increases your metabolism and makes you skinnier. How I wish it had been true for me, instead, I maintained a pudgy shape around the middle and could not lose weight, no matter what. Sure, my weight has fluctuated, but when it comes down to it, my weight has just been increasing.

It makes me uncomfortable. Scarves are my best friend because they hide you from the public eye, which probably isn't even truly looking at you. I just don't know how to feel about you, and I don't know if you'll ever let me be normal again.

I think that this blog, Hyperthyroidlicious might help me out, just get my ideas out there, but I really don't know. I can never tell if anyone is even listening to me.

Well, here's to a good year. Let's hope that you get better, which will, in turn, make me better.

Your Friend, More-or-Less,
Monika

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10 Comments:

Blogger Helen said...

Just wanted to say... even though I'm slow, and am late in reading just about everything lately... I'm listening to you.
And am grateful every time you post... you give me insight into my daughter's issues (she's congenitally hypo -- only has one lobe). I learn from you 9 posts out of 10. That's a stellar record.
So.
Thanks!

January 13, 2009 at 5:51 AM  
Blogger Jeeves said...

This is very nice one and I can relate to this. Iam hypo and nothing I do changes the way I look. I look bloated inspite of walks etc.,

January 15, 2009 at 12:29 AM  
Blogger Freida of the Bees said...

Oh gosh. I can very much relate to this. I was on PTU for some time, when I was hyper with a goiter and, uggh, hated it. I'm going to write a letter myself here in the next day or two, because I have a lot to get out around the issue of being out of shape despite my actions now that I am permanently hypo.

I'm glad you are going to write about it. I'll enjoy reading it.

-Freida

January 15, 2009 at 6:56 AM  
Blogger Linda-Sama said...

I'm also a thyroid patient for many years....good blog! thanks! have you seen the blog "Stop the Thyroid Madness"?

January 16, 2009 at 7:25 AM  
Blogger Katie Schwartz said...

Monika;

Thank you so much for posting this beautiful letter. I'm sorry you and your thyroid are going through such hell. The more you drag yourselves out of the thyroid closet, hopefully, the better you will feel.

I struggle with it, too. It's on my letter "To Write" list.

Be well, sister.

January 17, 2009 at 8:51 AM  
Blogger Katie Schwartz said...

Helen,

Thank you so much for reading Dear Thyroid. I'm sorry your daughter is going through such hell. Maybe you'll send us a letter. We'd love to post it.

Katie

January 17, 2009 at 8:52 AM  
Blogger Katie Schwartz said...

Oy Jeeves, I know how you feel! why is it that thyroid fat is a bloaty, swelly fat?

Send us a letter! Would love to know more about how you feel.

January 17, 2009 at 8:53 AM  
Blogger Katie Schwartz said...

Linda Sama;

Thanks for stopping by. Yes, I have seen stop they thryoid madness. Love the blog. It's great! Very inspiring.

Would love to hear more from you. Maybe you'll e-stalk us a letter :)

Katie

January 17, 2009 at 8:54 AM  
Blogger Katie Schwartz said...

Freida Bees,

Can't wait to read that yarn. You always spin a beauty.

K

January 17, 2009 at 8:55 AM  
Blogger monikawithak said...

Thank you all. You're amazing people. Love and peace.

-Monika

March 21, 2009 at 10:46 PM  

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